I would NEVER out you.
I am frustrated and hurt that you have taken what was said to you and once again twisted it and made it something that it wasnt.
I know that you are concerned about your parents response. I know that you need to be safe when that happens. And i would NEVER do it. If i wanted to, do you not think that i would have?
My telling you that i feel like publicising my blog was, as i said to you over and over, to tell you how i am feeling. It was not a threat. I told you that over and over and over again.
Once again you shut me out. You restrict my voice. You twist my words. You dont see truth.
I am hurt by your public and constant belittling, twisting and negative words and actions towards me whilst you have been oh so happy to accept my help and support in private. I am upset that behind the scenes you say you love me and miss me, yet publicly all is said is i "harrass" you etc.
And sometimes there is a part of me that wants to defend myself to this same world. Sometimes there is a part of me that wants to be free of this cage you have put me in because i cant be free to be me. And sometimes i want you to know how much your actions and words affect me.
But i would NEVER out you. Ever.
And you know this. In your heart, you know this. if you were to stop even for a second, you know this. It is not my character or my nature.
I have stepped back from you, I havent turned against you.
And I wont turn against you. Not ever. And i think you know this. I hope that you know this. There is no reason why you shouldnt know this.
I love you. More than anything in this world I love you. And the pain that this brings is unbearable sometimes.
I understand that you must be nervous right now. I get it. But please stop taking this out on me. Please stop doing this.
